Wait for Your Time
Cracked Christian – Wait for your time
If you’ve haven’t had a chance to check out my personal testimony, please check out the first episode of my series “Fill, Heal & Restore” and also the first installment of Cracked Christian titled “manifesting in your mess”. Those videos will give you an overview of my life and lead into today’s video.
Rebuilding from rock bottom is hard. Entrepreneurship is hard. Pursuing your passion is hard. This is especially so in the beginning when it’s hard to garner support. Recently a friend of mine and I were having a talk expressing our grievances in regards to how there’s an automatic level or respect and consideration that you receive from others when you’re “on top” versus when you’re starting out. This is true whether its family, friends, peers, social media acquaintances or industry professionals.
I started to feel like because I’m the newbie and I was easily disregarded and overlooked when it came to getting interviews, promos, support.. etc
After the “manifesting in Mess” debacle and just needing some validation somewhere I was eager for elevation.
I’m not gonna lie, I was most certainly starting to let offense, bitterness and strife take root toward those who I felt were playing games and not serious about working with me or blatantly ignoring me.
My mind was telling me that they’re doing this because you aren’t important. You’re not worthy. You haven’t been validated.
I’d been asking folks for interviews and getting the run around, asking to check out the show or promo the show. I was getting so heated and even more eager for my “Glo up” so that I could stunt and start hard.
Well God put me right back in my place really quickly. He made me question myself and my motives. “Why did you start” “Did you start to be obedient to your assignment and follow purpose or get worldly validation”
It was a much needed reality check to:
1. allow me to refocus and get my heart and spirit back in alignment with God.
2. To never insult God by thinking I need validation from man when he created man and he elevated them. He’s well able to elevate me.
3. Wait for my time. We just discussed how manifesting things before time can be disastrous. Malachi 3:11 speaks of Fruit being devoured if cast before time.
4. If God gave me the vision, he will give provision. If he gave you the plan, he will provide the people and the pathway to prosper.
So if you find yourself feeling similarly, don’t get in your feelings. Get back in alignment with God. Get in your word. Get in prayer. Get back in your purpose. Then at the right time you’ll be sitting pretty and in purpose where you were destined to be.
I talk about it more on the video below.. 💛
Cracked Christian- Manifesting while in Your Mess
While season 2 of “Fill, Heal and Restore is in production I’d love for you to check out my video “Manifesting in your mess”. I chat about my personal experience of manifesting my hearts desires while in my despair and how detrimental it can be to manifest things before time or that weren’t meant for you. Seek God first to align what you’re attempting to manifest in your life to ensure that it’s in alignment with what he wants for your life. Check it out below:
Happy Saturday!! ❤️
Years ago I became addicted to a blog nikkiandthecity.com.
It was an honest and relatable blog created by a young black woman that is undoubtedly driven, smart, bold and creative. Her ability to infuse faith, fun and pop culture combined with her gifts of screenwriting, acting and producing makes her a force to be reckoned. This queen can do anything she sets her mind to do and it’s proven with each accomplishment from two successful blogs, bestselling book and now films.
Episode 8 of Fill, Heal & Restore is “Destined for Greatness” with the gorgeous Tanikia Carpenter.
Also follow her on Tanikia.com and @TanikiaTV on (IG & Twitter)
Episode 7 features one of my favorite people on the planet. A young woman full of love for God, people and music journalism. Whenever I call her she is always there. One of the most supportive women I’ve ever met. Watch as Carla shares her story of experiencing God for herself.
Lost in hopelessness, Found in God
From the moment I met my sister in law i immediately saw a woman who was so beautiful to me, not only physically, but in spirit. Her energy being so sweet and welcoming. Her actions genuinely loving. Her persona undeniably giving. Seriously I left her house with 30 pairs of shoes… but I digress. Lol
She wears many hats wife, mom, full time worker, friend, mentor and minister. Just looking at her it's so hard to fathom that someone so gorgeous and put together could have ever struggled with the things that derail so many of us from our destiny.
Watch episode 6 featuring youth pastor Bernie Thomas as she shares her struggles of being lost and hurting in the world, but finding her value in God.
Episode 5 is ready and it features a young man passionate for God, family, the youth, music and ministry. He also happens to be my little brother, a minister and an MC. Here's Jermany with his story from the street life to living for God.
Follow him at @jermanyThomas on instagram and Facebook for updates on his new album release and services at All Nations World Assembly @allnationschi where he as well as my lovely sister in law are youth pastors for the Exodus youth ministry under the leadership of @matthewstevenson
Episode 4 of “Fill, Heal and Restore” is ready and it features a young woman and friend I’ve had the pleasure of knowing for years. To see her evolution and elevation has been such a beautiful sight.
Her testimony is one guaranteed to touch your heart and bring tears to your eyes, but it’s also a great reminder that God will give us beauty for ashes. He’s indeed faithful even through weeping and mourning. We can rest in the prince of peace.
Here’s Episode 4- Beauty for Ashes with Brittany A. Watkins
Episode 3 – Follow the keys with keishana miller!!
If there’s one person that I’ve leaned heavily on through my most difficult years it’s been this amazing woman right here that I’m blessed and honored to call my friend and sister. Her road has been beyond tumultuous, but she picks herself up and perseveres with the grace, faith and determination that is rare and beautiful. Here’s episode 3 “follow the keys” to getting through life with this pretty and petite actress, model, writer, producer and prophet Keishana Miller.
I remember the first day I met her. I had been booked by a makeup artist that I adore Traci Dani for a photo shoot and I was pumped. As the rest of the models and I are being prepared with the day’s agenda as well as getting our individual makeup looks completed for the shoot, a beautiful, slender, no nonsense young woman entered the studio, introduced herself as the photographer and begin to set up her camera, lights and equipment all by herself.
I was truly impressed because I love to see women handling their business especially in industries that seem to be male dominated. However realizing she’s about her business made me even more nervous, but the moment I stepped in front of her camera she flashed a smile and gave me a few kind words to put ease. She was not only super sweet, professional and amazing at her craft, but someone that I knew I wanted to stay connected to.
As you listen to her story, you’ll see why she draws you in. There’s an intriguing energy that surrounds her and an undeniable strength to be admired. Here’s Episode 2 of “Fill Heal and Restore” with the beauty behind the camera Janelle Jaqueline.. Enjoy
Cracked Christians Need love to… Part 1
“sometimes when you’re trying to mend the broken you might get cut.”
Have you ever dropped a glass or shattered a mirror accidentally and while in the process of putting the broken pieces together you cut yourself. Have you ever unintentionally broken your family China or favorite vase and while trying to delicately piece together the thing you love so dearly, it slices you and it hurts you.
That’s sometimes the results of dealing with a cracked christian. I’m admittedly flawed and working my way through various stages of toiling and depression. While overall I don’t mean any harm to anyone I can sometimes unintentionally hurt those who may be trying to help me.
Some parts of me may look like a Rose blooming, but the thorns below can puncture your heart in ways that I don’t necessarily mean.
I’ve witnessed on this journey that many believers become fearful to admit these moments of confusion or chaos because sometimes our brothers, sisters and leaders in Christ can be somewhat judgmental and condemn you for your struggles. Abandon you in your pit. Walk away when you’re at your weakest. Which can cause you to misdirect anger and lash out on those who actually do love and care for you.
Cracked Christians need a great deal of concern, compassion and care. Often times the fear of the rejection and judgement will make the cracked stay in solitude. Feeling undeserving of the Love of God and God’s healing.
My purpose for this post today is to help cracked Christians manage their emotions so that they’ll be more mindful of others feelings, not ruin friendships, relationships and business opportunities. Also to show others dealing with cracked Christians how to effectively understand, love and support them .. stay tuned for Part 2
From my heart to yours ❤️