Years ago I became addicted to a blog nikkiandthecity.com.
It was an honest and relatable blog created by a young black woman that is undoubtedly driven, smart, bold and creative. Her ability to infuse faith, fun and pop culture combined with her gifts of screenwriting, acting and producing makes her a force to be reckoned. This queen can do anything she sets her mind to do and it’s proven with each accomplishment from two successful blogs, bestselling book and now films.
Episode 8 of Fill, Heal & Restore is “Destined for Greatness” with the gorgeous Tanikia Carpenter.
Also follow her on Tanikia.com and @TanikiaTV on (IG & Twitter)
Episode 7 features one of my favorite people on the planet. A young woman full of love for God, people and music journalism. Whenever I call her she is always there. One of the most supportive women I’ve ever met. Watch as Carla shares her story of experiencing God for herself.
Lost in hopelessness, Found in God
From the moment I met my sister in law i immediately saw a woman who was so beautiful to me, not only physically, but in spirit. Her energy being so sweet and welcoming. Her actions genuinely loving. Her persona undeniably giving. Seriously I left her house with 30 pairs of shoes… but I digress. Lol
She wears many hats wife, mom, full time worker, friend, mentor and minister. Just looking at her it's so hard to fathom that someone so gorgeous and put together could have ever struggled with the things that derail so many of us from our destiny.
Watch episode 6 featuring youth pastor Bernie Thomas as she shares her struggles of being lost and hurting in the world, but finding her value in God.
Episode 5 is ready and it features a young man passionate for God, family, the youth, music and ministry. He also happens to be my little brother, a minister and an MC. Here's Jermany with his story from the street life to living for God.
Follow him at @jermanyThomas on instagram and Facebook for updates on his new album release and services at All Nations World Assembly @allnationschi where he as well as my lovely sister in law are youth pastors for the Exodus youth ministry under the leadership of @matthewstevenson
Episode 4 of “Fill, Heal and Restore” is ready and it features a young woman and friend I’ve had the pleasure of knowing for years. To see her evolution and elevation has been such a beautiful sight.
Her testimony is one guaranteed to touch your heart and bring tears to your eyes, but it’s also a great reminder that God will give us beauty for ashes. He’s indeed faithful even through weeping and mourning. We can rest in the prince of peace.
Here’s Episode 4- Beauty for Ashes with Brittany A. Watkins
Episode 3 – Follow the keys with keishana miller!!
If there’s one person that I’ve leaned heavily on through my most difficult years it’s been this amazing woman right here that I’m blessed and honored to call my friend and sister. Her road has been beyond tumultuous, but she picks herself up and perseveres with the grace, faith and determination that is rare and beautiful. Here’s episode 3 “follow the keys” to getting through life with this pretty and petite actress, model, writer, producer and prophet Keishana Miller.
I remember the first day I met her. I had been booked by a makeup artist that I adore Traci Dani for a photo shoot and I was pumped. As the rest of the models and I are being prepared with the day’s agenda as well as getting our individual makeup looks completed for the shoot, a beautiful, slender, no nonsense young woman entered the studio, introduced herself as the photographer and begin to set up her camera, lights and equipment all by herself.
I was truly impressed because I love to see women handling their business especially in industries that seem to be male dominated. However realizing she’s about her business made me even more nervous, but the moment I stepped in front of her camera she flashed a smile and gave me a few kind words to put ease. She was not only super sweet, professional and amazing at her craft, but someone that I knew I wanted to stay connected to.
As you listen to her story, you’ll see why she draws you in. There’s an intriguing energy that surrounds her and an undeniable strength to be admired. Here’s Episode 2 of “Fill Heal and Restore” with the beauty behind the camera Janelle Jaqueline.. Enjoy
Cracked Christians Need love to… Part 1
“sometimes when you’re trying to mend the broken you might get cut.”
Have you ever dropped a glass or shattered a mirror accidentally and while in the process of putting the broken pieces together you cut yourself. Have you ever unintentionally broken your family China or favorite vase and while trying to delicately piece together the thing you love so dearly, it slices you and it hurts you.
That’s sometimes the results of dealing with a cracked christian. I’m admittedly flawed and working my way through various stages of toiling and depression. While overall I don’t mean any harm to anyone I can sometimes unintentionally hurt those who may be trying to help me.
Some parts of me may look like a Rose blooming, but the thorns below can puncture your heart in ways that I don’t necessarily mean.
I’ve witnessed on this journey that many believers become fearful to admit these moments of confusion or chaos because sometimes our brothers, sisters and leaders in Christ can be somewhat judgmental and condemn you for your struggles. Abandon you in your pit. Walk away when you’re at your weakest. Which can cause you to misdirect anger and lash out on those who actually do love and care for you.
Cracked Christians need a great deal of concern, compassion and care. Often times the fear of the rejection and judgement will make the cracked stay in solitude. Feeling undeserving of the Love of God and God’s healing.
My purpose for this post today is to help cracked Christians manage their emotions so that they’ll be more mindful of others feelings, not ruin friendships, relationships and business opportunities. Also to show others dealing with cracked Christians how to effectively understand, love and support them .. stay tuned for Part 2
From my heart to yours ❤️
“Humble yourselves, therefore, under the mighty hand of God so that at the proper time he may exalt you,”
1 Peter 5:6 ESV
A major part of the Fill, Heal and Restore initiative was not only to create a platform using my struggles and lessons to encourage others to hope in God and grow with me, but to create an outlet for other young believers from all walks of life to come and share their own stories of how they’ve withstood the most difficult tests and willing to share their testimonies.
I truly believe that God won’t waste any pain or experience in our process. Finally, here is season on Episode 1 of Fill, Heal and Restore: Journey of Jenny!!
From my heart to yours,
The Stench: Rest In God
The Stench: Rest In God
If there’s one thing I’m certain of it’s I don’t want to live in a basement ever again. There’s barely any sunshine or light that enters the space. It’s always cold and creepy. Worst of all you have to deal with creepy crawlers and occasional rodents.
Lately there have been mice in my living space. The building next to mine has been abandoned for quite some time. I believe many come from there, but I digress.
On top of just trying to rebuild my life, faith, finances and so on keeping my peace, hope and joy has been a challenge. Just when I thought things were going upward, I was hit back to the very bottom of the valley.
The web series had been put on hold at the very end of production due to some financial challenges. My phone was off. I’d auditioned for a major station here as a host and was called back twice and then never called again. It felt like life was taunting me with little glimpses of hope and then take them all away. I found myself once again drowning deeply in depression.
One day upon returning home from a regular day of work, I walked in to smell the most awful order I’ve ever experienced. Found the spot it was coming from just inches away from the space where I sleep. It was mouse pee.
A Mice peed on carpet right next to where I slept. No matter what I tried to put on it. I used every kind of floor cleaner, bathroom cleaner, Bleach, carpet cleaner, toilet cleaner and nothing worked. For days I did this until finally it subsided a bit. Only for the little bastard to come back and do it again.
For me I take everything as a sign. This mouse peeing next to where I slept felt symbolic as to how I felt like someone had pissed on my life and no matter what I tried or how hard I tried to get out of this space in my life the stench still remained. Reeked?! No matter how many times I hoped again, tried again, prayed again, revamped the plan again, auditioned again, cried again, again and again.. nothing seemed to be working and the stench Of regret, failure, defeat, insecurity, brokenness, hurt, disappointment, frustration, poverty, hopeless dreams, unbelief, abandonment and loneliness all still remained and at an all time high.
I kept being told that God says to get some rest. I think for spiritual veterans that instruction seems self explanatory. To me however I was still lost. How exactly do I find rest in my God who has seemingly abandoned me. How can I reach him to find out exactly how I should go about this when it’s almost as if he has a new phone number and my phone is off. So what do I do exactly to find this rest when my mind is in distress, heart it broken, spirit in turmoil and faith has been dipped in frustration?!
I did the first thing many of us do when trying to find answers… I went to Google.. somebody has to help me.. and here’s what I found helpful to assist me on learning to rest in God. I hope it helps you too.
So as I continue to put forth my best effort to remove the stench and remnants of all life has thrown at me. I’ll learn to rest in God. I hope this helps you as well!